♥ with no words.-

{ things happened just so unexpectedly.}

i have to be strong and stop making people around me worried.

i have to put on a facade so nobody will know.

i have to keep that smile on my face.

i know i am weak inside, but somehow, i need to stay strong.

i know but i can't help it.

i prayed and believed in God.

i can't get use to the change in my life.

i can only rely on me myself and i.

i hope that everything will be fine.

i pray that my mama and grandma will be all right.

i know God will stay by them.

i know that He will not fail me, for He is God.

there's no one i can depend or rely on.

at the end of the day, it's still me myself and i.

no one will stay by you forever.

(Y)

-Xoria.

{ In every life, a little rain my fall. }

but after the rain, it'll be rainbow and sunshine :D .

but if i go on being this positive..

i think sooner or later i'll be hit again

HAHA.

i wish i have more problems in life.

then can think and think and think till explode.

so fun.

the best part is .. keeping everything to yourself.

then then then bigger impact when exploded.

like a cool.

or maybe not. =.= ..

HAIS.

i can't seem to settle down everything.

but well,

let nature goes according to the flow. (:

-Xoria.

{ trust? nah. Seeing is believing. }

but some say, seeing is not exactly believing.

such contradictions.

i'm not gonna care about you anymore.

don't find me if you have any troubles or whatsoever.

it's none of my business.

i'm always the one taking the initiative.

i'm sick of this.

so ya..

bye bye to you.

jiayee told me not to contact you until you did.

and i'm so going to do that.

so, good luck and have fun.

-Xoria.

{ Fcuk Mai Lyf. }

stop saying others selfish.

look at yourself first.

life is a reflection of who you are.

it is like one mirror image.

that's why they always say..

don't judge others before you judge yourself.

look at yourself first before you have the right comment on others.

BUT, you have the rights, so what?

stop avoiding already, face it.

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if being a Christian, you act this way, i rather you not going into Christianity.

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too many things are happening,

i'm sick and tired of all this shit.

i'm too tired to bother.

i don't wish to be in any religions anymore.

i give up.

i give up trying.

-Xoria.

{ changing in every perspective. }

I NEED TO CHANGE. and fast.

change everything everything.

whatever it is.

yes i hate you, a lot.

i'm sorry.

i'm just not important at all.

since i'm not needed,

i shouldn't be here.

life isn't it?

when people need you, they will appear.

when they don't, they just disappear.

i have had enough of this, seriously.

i'm just going to stay out of all these shit.

but i'll still do my best to help.

because.. at least, i will find myself useful.

thought that things will get better,

but it gets worst.

wow, i love my life and the challenges in it.

-Xoria.

{ nothing will last forever, and it's true. }

things are starting to get better out there.

i starting to think the right way.

i still don't know what i am doing,

but at least, i'm clear of everything that is around me.

this world, i've been living selfishly.

this life, i haven't been thinking about others.

i fight for myself.

and it's true.

i read this from shanice fb 'This is for those who've broken and made it through, and for those who have yet to pick up the pieces. Never give up. As much as it hurts. As hard as it may be. You may not love who you are, but remember that someone out there does. If you read this. Know that I care. Even if I don't know who you are. You are not alone. Your life is worth so much more than you think. Don't throw it away. You've made it so far.'

and i agree with her, like totally. (:

thanks shanice. this cheers me up.

it doesn't matter if i don't give good advice.

it only matters whereby i'm there when they need a friend to listen to them. :D

it doesn't matter at all if i am the only one suffering.

it only matters whereby people around me are happy. (:

it doesn't matter if i'm ruining myself.

as long as people around me are healthy and they do not harm themselves.

i choose the way i lead my life.

i choose the ending that i want.

this is my life and i know what i want to do with it.

-Xoria.

{ wearing a smile. }

wearing a smile everyday is tired.

damn.

don't you understand?!

today's lesson is .. == nts.

had a naggy faci who don't allow us to go first break.

forever lecturing about history of countries.

oh , this faci loves perfect english too.

too bad, my english cannot make it.

looking forward to chalet tomorrow.

gonna drink, drank, drunk.

i'm gonna kill myself at this rate.

but, i don't really care.

ya, go on wondering what's wrong with me.

nothing is wrong.

don't you realize?

wow. (Y)

because i really don't care anymore.

shit happens. accept the fact.

i've changed.

i have nothing to do with you.

have fun.

i've stop trying.

-Xoria.